Quilluminati

Finally, it's the day I sat alone;
Lost in thoughts with sins to atone.

Was it my fault, or am I in a spiral;
They left forever, leaving me to grovel.

Am I in guilt, or am I just grieving;
But is it really grief, if I am not crying?

Closed my eyes and recalled the
memories. Can't see a future, and think of
only untold apologies.

Woke up today in a frenzy, with a heart
so cold; Looked in the mirror and put on 
a poker face for the world.

Went on by my day, as a stranger to the
person who left;
No words of condolences, sympathy or
grief were said.

Months have passed now, still cannot 
believe the truth; Devoid of feelings now,
gulping the sinful fruit.

No guilt, no grief left in me;
With Tiredness and Apathy soon
becoming my new reality.

—Anshika Singh